Wednesday, November 21, 2007
ok. today im here to scream my heart out....
or u'll find my name in the obituaries a few days later, u'll know why... for those who are wondering, the case of death is not suicide or act of god. it's probably manslaughter.. or indirect murder.. or wadeva u call it.. or jus an unexpected medical condition called heart failure.. or heart explosion...
that tuesday.. cant rmb was it last wk or this wk. okay. perhaps i shld start fr monday nite.. yupp. monday nite...
ok. monday nite. i got a call fr u-know-who... ok. maybe u dunno who... fine i shldd jus use names den.. monday nite. i got a call fr jadeline.. yarrr. of all ppl.. she was like asking me if i wanted to practise the erhu exam songs during da zu on the following tuesday.. or well, the next day.. i really wanted to reject her flat in the face. but its really not me to shout over the house phone which will cause my dad, my mum and my sis to stare at me stunned while missing a large pt of their fav tv show when doing so.. so i was trying to u know.. dissuade her and reject her in a nice way.. but apparently, in this world all are smart but there are always some who are smarter than the rest... and jadey isnt one of them... she just didnt get wad i was trying to say... or maybe she acts stupid.. or maybe she si chan lan da.. or wad they call "nv say die attitude" in a negative sense... so finally i sorta pushed her to call yunrou... sorry la yunrou, but i jus cant stand her...
yay. oh boy. tuesday. i was as usual going for co prac.. hopefully my jr comes for prac tht day.. but i found out tt i didnt nid to hope anymore when karin jr said tt my jr had a medical appt. oh well. bummer... so i was junior-less tt day... yup. and then along came jadey who still insisted tt we prac the songs for erhu exam and leave all jrs in the lurch. she can say tt of course becoz she doesnt haf juniors. but yunrou does wad. and she haf two jrs some more.. then i heard some extremely irresponsible comments fr jadey. she was like lets skip da zu la. anw syf is over and we're always practising the same thing.. as for the juniors let them survive by themselves for one day.. i was like.. OH PLEASE.. easy for u to say. how on earth can you leave the juniors by themselves... wad if we're playing something new? who's gonna guide them lor... even if there are no juniors, i believe tt there's always something to learn fr da zu.. like some dynamics or something... yunrou didnt object to wad i said. so of course 2 against 1.. we stayed for da zu.. i was alr not very happy. then jadey asked me to put on a new string for her.. i was a little shocked. how can a sec 3 snr not even know how to put on a new string.. nvm. the weirder thing, the moment after i put on the new string, she broke it while trying to tune.. why was it so unexpected tt i forgot to be shocked.. oh ya. its becoz i'm highly pissed wif her level of competence... as a sec3 i think she cant even tune properly.. always out of tune.. u can always ask the rest... they'll tell u..
this was before break.. wad happened after break was even worse. before break, i noticed tt shermian was absent so her two juniors were unattended to.. wif them being seniorless and me being juniorless and the 3 of us all in erhu1, the naturall reaction would be for me to teach shermian's 2 juniors la... there was one problem. our dear jadey was in the way. she was seating beside yunrou who was sitting in front of shermian's 2 juniors. so it would be common sense tt she swapped seats wif me so that i can teach the 2 jrs, but she was to lazy to move butt of the chair, giving stupid reasons of which all i could counter. she went like: since im sitting here, why dont i teach them? i was like erm thanks but no thanks but since the jrs and i are in erhu1 and u(jadey) are in erhu2 wouldnt it be better tt i taught them as erhu1 and 2 do play diff parts u know.. before the next word i could say she was like why dont the jrs move up front to sit wif u? den i said there isnt as much space in front as compared to the back.. we'll knock into others..
so it went on...
well, im sharing the music score wif the erhu2 jr who sits beside me...
ok den, if u move up, u can share wif taohai, who's also erhu2 and at the same time u can teach him becoz zihao went bac to china...
erm im teaching the jr whom i share scores wif..
no wad. thats karin's junior.. karin will teach her..
erm. i sit here so tt i can ask yunrou stuff abt the erhu exam songs..
but u cant practise these songs during da zu anw.. u still can ask her on fri during sectionals or aft dazu..
WAH. CANT STAND IT.....
oh well.. time was running out. the conductor was coming in.. and she still refused to give up that seat to me.. highly unreasonable.. stupid la.. no wonder 3a ostracised her.. so i had no choice but to take the chair fr my seat and move it to the bac.. caused a bit of inconvenience as the co rm isnt all tt big.. and then there was a large 'hole' in the midst of all the erhus... wahh... i was so pisseddddddd... i wanted to throw her out of xianyue man... i did ask karin to exert her power as xianyue sl and ask jadey to sit at her rightful plc.. but jadey die die also dowan to move like she sitting on eggs lidat lor.. i think karin was pretty nice to her... if it was huishan, she prob got scolded le... my skin is alr quite tan.. but my face apparently got blacker aft co prac..
on the way home i was like i love to step on mushrooms man.. cant wait to trample on them.. yunrou understood wad i said so started to laugh and started to say tt she hates mushrooms.. those who dunno will cont to not know....
RARRRRRRHHH............
I HATE MUSHROOMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ahhhhh. much better.....
happiness_written ;
6:10 PM =)
Friday, October 26, 2007
yay. its last day of school. actually its just called prize pres day la. so we get bac our report books, clean up the classrm, review the past sch yr and sit in the hall to see ppl getting prizes.. yup. anw. didint like my report book. yup. becoz there were many things tt were out of wad i had calculated.. like ss. didnt expect to get a B4 la. why on earth muz they include that stupid reliability exercise.. and hist.. i got a C5. also didnt expect to get A1 for cid.. esp after i saw my paper marks.. yup. i think i muz haf did really well for report and op since i got like 24 out of 40 for the paper, which is 40% of the whole thing. i think i stil can do better la.. anw. we were supposed to clean up the class but i tink mr wong was nice to release us on time for break instead.. during the prize presentation wah.. sec2 got one biantai gal la.. so biantai lor. can get gpa 4... even zong guo also cannot get.. and she got it. and the scarier part is tt i found out tt she stays like in the block of flats next to mine.. anw. zong guo also quite li hai la.. topping 4 subjects (bio, physics, maths and geog i tink)and overall. my class also not bad la. got 2 top in chinese (which i wonder how we actually produce this kind of ppl when u know, the class dont listen to luo laoshi and etc. i think they might get higher lor. oh and no prizes for guessing tt they are PRC scholars) and the top gal for lit. she also tops ss and english in class.. so ironic. she sits beside me and she excels in the subjects i suck at.. wad a small world.. oh and zhijun topped hist.. again...
after tt we had mdm connie chan's farewell.. honestly speaking shes nice la. and i hope tt she'll come bac. although im not her student or in the sc... anw, the scs had like a mini farewell party for her after everything ended...
at the end of sch, i was supposed to meet jenns for lunch. at plaza sing. it was supposed to be jus yantong, judith and me. and jenns of course, but huiling and sm said they wanted to come along so they did.. at first had to wait for yantong to finish her farewell party for mdm chan and then had to wait for huiling to get her report book fr mr gan.. btw.. MR GAN OWES MY CLASS 3D SWENSENS ICE CREAM. ahem *clears throat*.. so left sch quite late.. yup. but even then jenns was stil not dismissed yet. she had to look for a teacher and her class.. so we went to plaza sing first.. i think it was quite weird. we took 97 to habourfront but for some reason, we went to sit on the top deck.. i think its a habit of sm and co. always taking 97 home.. then at the mrt station, we almost waited at the wrong side of the platform. and yantong was so funnny.. she kept saying tt she wans to sleep, budden she talks loudly that ppl in the train looked at her.. then everytime she sleeps, she wakes up the next instant [can ask sm, he timed her]. i think tt yantong was weird la. she went to plaza sing to buy shampoo, and specifies tt it mus be a travel pack and also states the brand.. she wanted to get tt becoz she claims tt she has many camps like sc camp and co camp. then huiling reminded her tt the sc camp is not an overnight camp and judith told her tt co camp is jus one night and tt she could jus borrow the shampoo instead of buying it. then yantong was like oh ya hor.. -.-" jennings was rushing to plaza sing so she asked us to eat first. at first we wanted to eat mos burger, but some yantong said tt she didnt wan mos burger and she wanted to eat yoshinoya >.< then we were like wads the point of eating yoshinoya at plaza sing when we can jus eat it at habourfront.. den yantong said it was becoz they had a promotion.. thats yantong.. always thinking of ways to save $$. so in the end we went to eat pizza hut. the funny part was tt we ordered stuff from the same page, same section of the menu. so i was like: "erm excuse me can i haf all these?" then i sort of run my finger through the whole section.. and then the waitress was like all these? we were like ya.. then money saving yantong took out her coupons and asked if she could redeem free garlic bread.. T_T while waiting huiling was playing the rubriks cube. in case u dunno, her class is damn good at this. judith wanted to try so huiling let judith play. den the ever excited yantong was like hey i also know... den she began to teach judith how to play tt cube. but in the end it somehow ended up with yantong la. she was trying to complete the last bit, but apparently got stuck.. so she asked huiling. huiling recited a formula to her, but she kept forgetting it. then sm went to play, but he dunno how to solve tt thing so he asked huiling. i tink huiling was a bit tired of repeating the formula, so she typed it into sm's hp.. smart idea man.. finally jenns arrived. when i was eating my baked rice halfway.. apparently jenns told her tr tt she had a medical appt with us... in the end we were asking jenns to order the last item on the menu tt we didnt order so tt we would seem to hav ordered everything fr tt section. but she didnt like baked rice, so she ordered the same thing as huiling.. then i passed her some notes on kinematics, dynamics, vectors and mole.. yup. she said she wanted to mug. we were like mug wad la. becoz jenns kept complaining tt kinematics was hard and then we were like no lorrr... oh and tt jenns had a higher gpa than me. i tink tt im not fated to beat her in terms of studies.. ok. then came the time to foot the bill. since yantong had the strange ability to attract waitress' attention, she called for the bill. we found it weird la. becoz we paid the amt without gst and the bill still had change for us. so the waitress took it bac and gave us a new one. then yantong found it weird again.. she was like saying why isnt there a student discount.. so she called the waiter to come and she was like can u explain the bill? the waiter explained tt there was an extra surcharge for dining in town... den we were like orhhh. so we each paid extra $1... and then so as to make the waiter's job easier, i kept exchanging my note to the coins paid by the rest. at the end of the day i think my wallet can cause me to gain some pounds lor.. after eating we went to shop around. sm didnt seem to be interested in the stuff we were looking at so he played wif huiling's cube.. wif the formula on his hp of course.. yup. tts abt it le..
and mr gan still owe my class ice cream..
and monday got remedial and robotics camp.. yay. can see mr rush again.. after such a long time...
happiness_written ;
7:36 PM =)
Thursday, October 25, 2007
the past 2 days was learning symposium. actually its about the same as the project festival that we used to haf every year. yup. i was a presenter. so sian la. stuck in that pathetic classroom of mine for like almost the whole day. im supposed to present on the cid proj i did in the first semester. yup tts the one with hookie.. mr hook, i mean.. wah. so hard to link wadeva we did wif the habits of mind la. and then before tt, for the whole week i skipped lessons just to do this proj. i even stayed back lor.. i was like pretty unhappy wif this hookie's proj. so im quite happy that this is finally over.
the first day (yesterday) was so boring la. so very extremely boring. started the day wif the first keynote address (ya theres a second one). oh. the speaker was dr soon. ya, the maths talent class dr soon. after his talk many of us started to think if he was the one who came wif ASK. jus did some presenting. ya. there were 2 other grps tt shared the classrm as us, both were the juniors' grps.. sec1 and 2. i mean yr 1 and 2.. one was on the fashion catwalk in the aesthetics cluster. the presentation was average. the 'catwalk' was a little draggy becoz the guy kept walking the same route and giving the same pose.. gets a little sian after a while. den the second group did on punk music. reminds me of english music proj.. the pres was quite long and boring. the most interesting part was the video they played at the end.. yaa.. still dunno why the classroom is so packed when they present.. i mean really packed okay. so many ppl until there were not enough chairs.. some sat on tables, some on the floor den the rest who came late stood. they stood in the classroom or outside of the classroom and watched thru the windows. i think it must be the video.... zhijun and the 3c huishan were the helpers in our classroom.. i think they did a great job in setting up and decorating the classroom despite being 'saboed' by ms chia. or maybe tts why they are saboed. im not gonna comment on our grp's pres. i think i didnt do a good job. went home. sianzzz....
the second day (tts today) was much better.. stil had keynote address (see i told you theres a second one). but the speaker was more interesting. then got prize presentatn.. all participating grps had some cert of participation.. den they gave the prizes for the yr1 cheering competition and yr2 games stalls. they also gave prizes for best group presentatns and best presenters. the prize for the top presenters seem to be either ipod or mp3.. in case ure wondering, ipod not equals to mp3. the nanyang research proj so li hai la. or wad the boys in my class call imbaa.. they won a special commendation for the best grp presentatn and 2 best presenters.. ariel and charlotte tai li hai le. den continued wif presentaions. but im not presenting today... so i slackedd.. sort of. i went to talk to zhijun and lau sinyee.. den i realised tt zhijun is very erm, scheming, maybe.. she intends to look for a rich, old man who is dying fr cancer and doesnt hav children. so tt she can inherit his money, complete her dream of building a school and den go and marrying her dream guy who is handsome, smart, taller den her, and.. rich -.-" so like drama la. i think zhijun watches too much tv.. or she reads too many storybooks.. den she says she wans to study design but she says the school fees in la selle and nafa are too ex.. oh well. den i started to tell her tt my parents want my to (1)go to medical sch and become a doctor, (2) have a best friend who is a doctor or (3) marry a guy who is a doctor.. that way they'll save some medical costs and doctor's fees when they have ailments in old age.. i dont take bio and dont intend to take bio, so option one is out.. option 2 is pretty uncertain.. so zhijun suggested option 3.. right... -.-"' she started to come up with a list of ppl who take bio.. oh please. taking bio doesnt equal to becoming a doctor... zhijun, you really nid to cut down on the tv and storybooks..
the day was coming to an end and we were supposed to go to the hall for the closing of the learning symposium.. but apparently, we havent kept our stuff so ms chia asked us to go bac to pack up. after packing up, we were like being conned by a dunnowho who said tt we needed to stack up the 12 chairs in the classroom. so we stacked. then after tt another someone else said tt we needed to take the remaining chairs out of the needlework rm and put them bac into the sec one classrooms we used... we were like. WAD?! but we stil moved the chairs and desks laa. ya. there were few of us on the first floor. jianlong, swee cheng, pearly, rousi, sylvia, lau sinyee, silin, sijie, baey huishan, zhijun and me. yunzheng and the rest did the second floor.. we managed to complete 4 classrooms and did 2 classrooms halfway.. we realised tt we were conned when mdm lalitha and mr desmond seetoh were like asking us to stop and get the sec ones to do it as that was their classroom and they were coming bac fr the hall anw.. wah.. i was like THE SEC 1 CLASSES THAT WE MOVED IN THE DESKS AND CHAIRS FOR OWE US A DRINK OR A MEAL.. OR SOMETHING.. but come to think of it, the moving was quite fun leh.. because the classrooms on the first floor had ceramic tiles on the floor, so when we pushed in the desks and chairs we jus had to slide them across the floor. very fun. it was like ice skating with tables and chairs. one of the classrooms we managed to arrange was the classroom tt 2d06 used when we first came to this school compound... then i started to think of jennings.. den i felt a little sad.. ok. tts beside the point.. after moving the stuff, we went to the canteen where we had the catered lunch provided by the school. the cream puff was so nice luh.. it was like having choc ice cream in a puff... even then, the classes who didnt need to arrange the tables and chair becoz we did it for them deserve to give a drink or smthing. so the following classes: 1A, 1B, 1C, 1F,1G & 1H. watch out lor. i might come and qiao zha (extort money) fr u (: joking la.
i realised tt thruout this whole learning symposium, i was like presenter cum guide cum helper. i presented my proj, i explaimed the cid framework and syllabus to a teacher fr another sch and i helped to move the tables and chairs around for the sec ones.. how ironic..
tmr is like d-day fr us. tmr is prize pres day for academic results.. its also the day tt we get our result slips bac. apparently, i think tt cid will pull down my gpa.. tts sad la.. oh and we also get to clean the classroom.. hahahaha.. i tink tt my classroom has enough dust for us to clean for the next two days lor. extremely dirty. partially becoz not everybody does duty. which also reminds me tt mr rendy lee's fine system for class duties is really effective.. compare 2d and 3d. u'll see why. its obvious la.. (:
happiness_written ;
2:39 PM =)
Monday, October 22, 2007
wah.. like when was the last tym i actually blogged?? oh ya. it was when raffles founded s'pore.. anw, yay... exams are like over.. but sigh apparently didnt do as well as expected.. yup.. the happiest thing is like erm.. I PASSED HISTORY!!!!(: didnt expect to pass la.. im also happy wif physics.. yup. did quite well.. even though i stil lost to kelvin tjakra.. dunno wads wif him lor. like genius lidat.
btw fri supposed to have xianyue bbq la. budden i got diarrohea.. so cannot go. sad la.. and den erm mrs phua said tt the proj tt sm, shuyinn and i supposed to do will still continue, but we need to think of a new idea again.. our original idea got stolen by some poly student, who in e end won smthing in tkkyia.. okay maybe i do hav the brains to come up wif an award winning proj [smiles]. ok. but mrs phua said tt theres this robotics camp or course or smthing la. she says tt sm, shuyinn and i will sit in and listen so tt we can refresh our mem abt programming... right... apparently she got kelvin to go for the course.. yup. mrs phua also says tt during tt time, we'll be doing projects wif her.. oh well.
today is the start of Os.. all seniors jiayouu. sch is supposed to be dismissed by 1230. but i got this learning symposium thing. so i left sch at 130. stil hav to do the display board.. if i known earlier tt doing my cid properly for mr hook will land me in this stupid situation, i wld jus heck care abt his proj la. no marks reflected anw.. this thing wastes so much time la.. anw tmr is gonna get worse.. i hope for the better. i also hope tt tmr morning dont rain.. otherwise the display board is gonna be wet.. oh and i have to present on wed and thurs.. oh well.
totally look forward to fri. becoz theres no cca, jenns and i are gonna go out together.. wif yantong of course. stil nid to call yantong to confirm place and time.. but jus cant get thru. i'll try again lor.. most likely is plaza sing.. oh man. jus cant wait to see jennings. jus called her. she seems depressed abt her physics. dunno. maybe the physics teachers in nj arent as good as those here.. she's jus unhappy wif the physics paper la. even though the topic tested is kinematics.. oh boy...
happiness_written ;
5:28 PM =)
Thursday, June 14, 2007
yay.. im finally blogging again... why the long wait? well becoz i hav been really busy and my sis and i haf to fight to use e comp.. and. she almost always wins e opportunity... it has been one week since i came bac fr japan.. and to tell u e truth, japan is GREAT.... the only not so great pt was tt the hotel rms and the hotel bathrooms were a little small.... and in japan i spent my money like it grows on trees lidat (i know tts not a very good habit but then, if u actually went i bet u wld feel like buying the whole shopping mall..)... i spent almost 18,000-20,000 yen[about S$150-200] on food.. yupp.. on those things tt u place in ur mouth and they disappear... and then when i came bac i realised tt i didnt buy enough gifts to giv to all e ppl i wanted to give to... tts a little shocking, considering the fact tt i had to get an extra bag fr daiso to store e stuff i couldnt put in the luggage.. and also the fact tt my luggage had gained almost 4kg in e trip....
to all u kids out there, dont ever learn fr me...
enough of japan trip... now i haf a qn in mind... is it now a trend to pon cca during hols???? honestly speaking, i got a bit of a shock when i went bac to CO aft the trip.. i mean lyk my section is lik more than half empty.... wad is this man??? then on tues prac, it was even scarier... there was slightlt more ppl than on fri.. but the prob is tt most of them were jrs... where are my sec3s??? u mux know how scary it was... an orchestral piece almost became a concerto..(for those who dunno, concerto is a piece written for a solo instrument to be accompanied by an orchestra) yup.. tts how it feels like... becoz the jrs werent very sure of the piece we were playing(i seriously dont blame them for tt).. and some of the seniors were also not very sure.. so it was those few ppl who sorta played thru the whole thing-- mostly gaohu peeps..[kudos to shan and peien]
hmmmm... i wonder... what happened...
heres something even weirder.... on tues they announced a list of 10 candidates to go for a test to be selected as concert master(or maybe concert mistress in this case, since all 10 were gals).. concert master is the best player of all the string instru..[funny tt they didnt include cello and bass] and she sits right beside e conductor... the funny pt is tt the concert mistress always... i repeat ALWAYS comes fr gaohu.. but out of e 10 ppl chosen, more then 1/2 dont come fr gaohu... super weird..... oh well dunno wad mr lum has in mind...
stupid... on mon got headache didint manage to go to 3d chalet... rarrr..
oh.. and erm i miss jennings so much... yantong and i were supposed to meet her on her b'dae and celebrate it wif her... but she said tt becoz she had exams in july, she nid to study.... ):
so hey jennings, you know the destressing helps u to absorb better? and u know celebrating ur b'dae= being happy= u study better... rarh. yantong and i are helping to study better and yet u dont appreciate it.. whats e matter wif u??????
happiness_written ;
11:09 AM =)
Friday, April 06, 2007
yayyy.. im sooooo happy.. CO got syf GOLD WITH HONOURS... yayyyy.... okok. maybe in a sense tt i didnt expect it..
wed morning i woke up super early. becoz i slept early on the night before. den i woke up at 0130 hrs on wed due to sheer excitement. i tossed in bed for abt 30min den i went back to sleep. the next time i woke was at 5am; becoz of my alarm clock--my hp actually.. so i ate breakfast and got my dad to send me to sch. i reached sch at 0558hrs. den i went to change to performence costume and went to tune my instru.. we practised the two syf songs once thru and den we brought the bigger instruments down to the lorry to load. we reached s'pore conference hall at abt 0800hrs. when we arrived we alr saw some other schs dere.. okay. we're a little late.. maybe?
den we went to tuning rm and practised the syf songs again and den we got cut off in the middle of e second song. we were asked to go to backstage. so we went and den the instructors of various instrus started to tune for their students. and oh ya. we waited at the backstage area for abt 30mins. ok . waiting was more tiring and stressful than the actual competition itself. i had seniors and friends who began to feel cold. thankfully there was ah noob. ah noob is actually tze hui. yupp the sec3 pipa tt one. she was probably my heater.. and she actually said she felt warm.. wow. okay. finally. the door leadin to stage was opened. my judgement day was here.
i went on stage and felt extremely cold. becoz the air-con dere was super powerful. we sat dere for some time and den our conductor came out, we played, we cleared off the stage. done. my fate is sealed. i cant comment on how we performed becoz wad i heard on stage is different fr wad the judges heard. btw there were 5 judges in all. all men. after our turn we went to load our instruments to be brought back while we stayed till the next interval. after us was pasir ris crest sec. dunno how they did becoz we missed their performence. after was jurong sec. we decided to clap louder to encourage them becoz we hav e same conductor and tt we hav exchange prog b4. for set piece i hav no comment. but i jux thot that they did reasonably well for choice piece. it was quite nice actually. the next sch was st anthony's canossian sec. for set piece they did ok. but the reall shocker was the choice piece. of all things they chose chang cheng sui xiang qu[basically its the Great Wall Capriccio]. that was the first time i felt threatened. the sch after tt was CHIJ st nicholas girls sch. again, no comment about set piece. but i think tt they did quite well for choice piece la. and erm for st anthony's and st nic's i truly admire their suona soloists. becoz i alr admire gals who can blow suona... not to mention gals who can blow as well as them.
on the journey back to sch i was lyk wad if we cant get the gwh?? sighhh.
den finally came the moment of truth during assembly. the PA system gave off a tune signalling tt there was an announcement to be made. my heart sank. i heard the HOD's voice. she was lyk 'here are the results for the syf central judging for chinese orchestra. we hav been awarded the gold..[ den at this moment everybody was silent] with honours. den ppl started screaming and cheering for CO. and of course CO members were probably shedding tears of joy.. not long after tt, we heard the tune signaling for announcement thru the PA system again. my heart sank again.. i was like is she gonna say tt she made a mistake and tt we didnt get gold with honours? i heard the CO tr i.c's voice. she was calling all CO members to stay bac aft assembly la. oh please.. dont scare me like tt. i'll die fr shock.
since jenns has been bugging me to reply tags, im gonna do it now.
to sm-- yan is known as jelly becoz in the spongebob family[if u rmb], yantong is the jellyfish. jelly is my short form for jellyfish. and the reason why i sent blank posts was becoz i made some changes to the blog template and they couldnt show so my sis solved the prob by republishingthe blog- wif empty posts.
to sinyee and jenns-- yupp u got the results. and u two mux jiayou in wadeva u do too!!
to sinyee and chenyu-- kx. i linked both of u le..
to the not-so-real JO-- hello?! i see no link. i totally havent mentioned charmaine in posts bfore... wad exactly are u scolding me for???? and one more thing. how can i hold smthing against such a nice gal lyk charmaine??? oh and of course. dont ever dare to insult my intelligence. charmaine is NOT blind. and who exactly are u??? show urself! why r u using the name JO? and why u so overly sensitive abt charmaine? i didnt even say anything abt her and yet u're scolding me? tellya wad. go pick another name....
happiness_written ;
3:37 PM =)
Thursday, March 15, 2007
yupp. sorry that i made some funny thinggy as posts.. super sorry... anw on tuesday we went to sch-- singapore conference hall-- not school-- for the syf rehearsal. the place is super cold lor just like wad laoshi said-- tai shang xiang dong tian[ok basically this means 'on stage it is like winter' in chinese. pai seh, my laoshi is fr taiwan and my comp cant type chinese]. it was so cold i just cant play a single note in tune becoz my hand was lyk numbb.. and then i also realised the interesting bit abt playing on stage. becoz on stage you hav some thinggy tt reflects the sound out into the audience(supposedly), and den it jus sounds lyk ur playing by urself... or at least u play the loudest among everyone else.. so i got worried.. becoz when u cant hear others and can only hear ur self there are two possiblities-- 1. it really just so happened tht u played louder. this is bad becoz it proves tt u arent getting ur dynamics[volume of the music] right. OR 2. you are playing very very very very very off key-- or in other words, veryveryveryvery out of tune--the difference is so big tt u sound so different and erm outstanding ... in a bad way of course. and becoz i was worried, i went to ask other ppl if they hav the same prob.. well they do... ok.. so maybe this is normal...
when we went back to school, we got a debrief... vp was dere wif us at conference hall, so he had his bit to say... but not before the teacher gav her comment.. btw, this tr is an alumni of CO.. so dont play play ok... basically what the teacher said was that it was overall ok.. just tt we didnt haf enough 'tai feng' or expressive movements when we were playing... among those who didnt , erhu section--my section-- was probably the worst... she did also say that tanbo--or plucked-string section-- were not bad becoz they were alway lookin at the conductor, cello-bass were the best in tai feng, and the wind section were alright... just not erhu.. come on.. even gaohu and zhonghu passed the test.. oh ya and percussion was also in timing...
ok. now lets hear wad the vp had to say.... basically he said about the same as the teacher... just that he added some points. he said tt suona was very steady in their short notes, wind section as a whole was alright, and flutes should prevent themselves from sounding flat in long notes, however, their tai feng was not bad... he also said that the yangqin sounded nice.. and the plucked- string section kept looking at the conductor and therefore were in timing--tts gd btw.. percussion was alright except for some stuff which i forgot wad.. the cello and basses were the best in show... they played well and were superbly expressive.. he even picked out some ppl that he said were good performers. he said nothing about zhonghu really.. he also said that gaohu was not bad.. now. here was my judgement day.. he was saying that erhu section was totally like a bunch of wooden blocks.. totally and utterly expressionless.... he also said tt when erhu section stood, they should not stand on one foot, when they sat, they should sit up straight--which we didnt-- and that they should look at the conductor instead of bending their heads and looking at their instruments... finally... finally he said something good abt erhu section... he said tt for the past few times he heard we were also out of timing when we accompany the cello part, but at that time he heard it, it was better then last time...
okay.. im not saying that they shouldnt point out our mistakes. but at least dont make it sound humiliating. they critisized us by comparing us to other sections, and of course by natural reaction, the ppl in the other sections laughed. maybe we shld see how i felt. totally unexpressable... come on, at least i tried to do some tai feng and yet becoz of some other ppl who refused to move, u're saying tt i didnt do enough.. what do u want me to do, move until i fall off my chair?? move till people think tt i'm insane???? in case u dunno, during the 50th anniversary concert, i moved and den u ppl asked me to move less becoz i looked funny moving when no one else is, and den now you're saying tt i didnt try hard enough?? i mean what is this man???
ok fine. all because of some extremely stubborn wood blocks tt refused to move, i get lyk almost humiliated... do u know tt horrible feeling??? its lyk you've already tried, but because of some people who refuse to try after times and times of reminders, and becoz they're supposed to rep the best and when they're found not trying, u get the blame together wif them, and its not tt u didnt try.. u DID... but because of those ppl, others think tt u arent trying at all..
i am feeling that i am super insignificant. i feel tt i am effortless.. i have already tried; i alr put in what i've got from dynamics to movements to having eye contact wif the conductor and trying to look at him most of the time to improving technically... i hav already put in effort.. what more do you want from me??? if the orchestra is supposed to play soft but my section plays loudly, i try my best to control my volume, but it seeems tt even if i do not make a sound, its not gonna acheive the effect at all. or perhaps the other extreme. if we're supposed to gradually get louder and louder, even if i start off not playing and end up playing so hard tt my strings break or the skin of my fingers ripps off, there's not much difference if everybody decides to remain at the same volume...
i may sound as though i am making myself the innocent victim... please pardon me... i jus cant bottle it up any longer or i'll probably rip into shreds. RRRRRAAAARRRHHH!!!!!!!!!
ahh. much better..
happiness_written ;
7:25 PM =)
